No 'Exit' Sign

“It is impossible to fall out if love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once in envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. It you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn’t love you were in. There is no ‘exit’ signs in love, there is only an ‘on’ ramp.”

The love of my life is returning in FIVE DAYS (127 hours) and I am so eager to see, feel, smell, and hold him again. It has been a very long, hard, emotional, challenging, exciting, maturing, and extremely spiritual growth period for the both of us and I am so grateful to have gone through this with him (and the Robinson’s). A few weeks ago I was anxious for the moment Trevor steps off that plane. I was concerned that he wouldn’t like me anymore. Trevor and I had a five-year plan in place when he left on his mission and unfortunately our plan has not played out as perfectly as we hoped. Both of us have had several blind bumps we had to face alone, but after every bump we concurred the confirmation in our love grew stronger. I am grateful our five-year plan didn’t work, because this path has augmented my love for Trevor more than I knew possible.

I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me. Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with him more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the thrings you might me ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room. (get weak just thinking about Trevor coming down the airports escalader!) Love is someone owning a piece of your heart through out your life and into the eternities.

Trevor when you read this I want you to know that I am grateful for this choice you have made. I am so blessed to have found someone who has inspired me to find the inner strength to get me through life (and this mission). You are one of the greatest blessings in my life and my best friend. There is no one else I want to share my soul with for eternity than you. I love you so much and I can’t wait to be with you again.

“If I never met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t love you. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”